Have you ever been in love? 
Simply by recalling the romantic moments when he did something special for you – you’ll get that honey-coated feelings that is so intense, you swear you can taste it in your mouth!
All women want to be loved. There is a void in our heart that we attempt to fill up.
Thus we strived:
To be a good daughter to get parent’s love
To be the perfect friend so we are loved
To diet and look physically appealing so we can find a man who will love us.
I was like any other women, working very hard to earn man’s love but it never satisfied me. This love came with “strings attached”, conditional of my efforts/performance and subjected to unexpected external changes. It was very difficult because I was trying to fulfil everyone’s expectation in exchange of their acceptance and love.
My 1st year in Christ – [1]I read in bible that my salvation is by God’s grace and through my own [2]faith. It was simply weird because I never used this word [3]GRACE in secular world. [4]Though I believe that God sent his only son Jesus to die for all of us but I couldn’t understand why would Jesus go through all these pain & suffering?
I had the misconception thinking that God’s love is conditional – that he would only love me when I attended church and when I read the bible & prayed; because each time he would answer my prayers!
My relationship with God was like a business transaction then.
After my water baptism in Aug 07, I begin to question what kind of God I serve.
Since church camp in Port Dickson, he has been pouring out his love into my heart. [5]A love so pure that surpasses my understanding and it just so overwhelmed me that I realise his love is perfect and unconditional.
Nothing compares to God’s love or his ways of showing me how much he loves me.
Even before I acknowledge him, he has poured out so many blessings in my life. He has given me so much favour with men and without his grace; I’ll not be who I am and doing what I am doing now.
I’ll not be able to write this article thousand feet above ground. Glancing out of the plane’s window, I can only see endless, infinite blue sky. [6]The same God who created this sky and everything in this earth, he also created you and me.
How I wish all women in this world to know God’s love, to be fully secure and [7]confident in him.
[8]Not having to worry for anything but to trust to[9]lean on him at all times.
Women who will choose to live out the life that [10]God has planned for them!
[11]I choose to live a liberated life with only fear for God! How about you?
[1] Ephesians 2:8, 9 – “For it is by free grace [God’s unmerited favor]that you are saved[delivered from judgment and made partakers of Chris’s salvation] through[your] faith. And this [salvation] is not of yourselves [of your own doing, it came not through your own striving], but it is the gift of God.”
[2] Mark 11:22,23- “ And Jesus, replying, said to them, Have faith in God. Truly I tell you, whoever says to this mountain, Be lifted up and thrown into the sea! And does not doubt at all in his heart but believes that what he says will take place, it will be done for him”
[3] Grace is defined as undeserved favor from God.
[4] John 3: 16 – “For God loved the world so much that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him may not die but have eternal life.”
[5] Ephesians 1:4,5 – “ Even as [in his love]He chose us in Christ before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless in his sight, even above reproach, before Him in love. For He foreordained us to be adopted as His own children through Jesus Christ, in accordance with the purpose of His will”
[6]Genesis 1:1 – 2:3
Psalm 24:1-2 “The earth is the Lord’s; and everything in it. The world, and all who live in it; for he founded it upon the seas and established it upon the waters.”
[7] Philippians 3:3 – “...we glory and pride ourselves in Jesus Christ, and put no confidence or dependence in the flesh and on outward privileges and physical advantages and external appearances.”
[8] 1 Peter 5:7 – “Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully.”
John 14:27 – “Peace I leave with you; my peace I now give and bequeath to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.”
[9] Colossians 1:4 – “For we have heard of your faith in Christ Jesus [the leaning of your entire human personality on Him in absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness] and of the love which you [have and show] for all the saints.”
[10] Proverbs 16:9 – “A man’s mind plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps and makes them sure.”
Ephesians 2:10 – “For we are God’s handiwork, recreated in Christ Jesus that we may do those good works which God predestined for us, that we should walk in them.”
[11] 1 John 4:18 “ the perfect love of God casts out fear”
Proverbs 3:5-7 “Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight and understanding. In all your ways know, recognize, acknowledge Him, and he will make your path straight. Be not wise in your own eyes, reverently fear and worship the Lord and turn away from evil.”
Jas.T - who will always be giving me the support & strength i need anytime/anywhere.
Rena - my one&only poly aerobic-cheesecake buddy :)
Audrey L - who would join me in any adventures! She made my school days special!
Emilyn C - my gorgeous friend who amazed me by looking good in any day/time/conditions.
Stella L - who showed me the beauty of a pure heart & the meaning of true friendship.
Veron L - a special friend who never failed to inspire my passion for living.
Aimess, Sin Ok & Anjali made all the differences during my years in Germany! Hours hanging out in cafes, cooking&eating together while laughing so much..
i can't imagine how it will be without them :)
Coming from different background nor communicating in broken German didn't hinder us to becoming good friends. Despite we are all living in different countries now, our hearts are still tightly woven together and conversations are picked up as seem we just met up yesterday!
I thank God for every angel he sent in my life and without all of you, my wall of blessings will not be what it is today!
Accept the truth that “LIFE IS HARD”.
I came through this sentence in a book when I was 14years old and a non-believer.
It made sense to me then because it explained why things usually go wrong; why people don't behave the way I wanted them to and why a lot of people just get sick and die.
My life journey till I was 20years old was like being blindfolded in a garden.
I went life doing what most middle class Singaporeans had to - I don't know where I was going but I knew I was going somewhere. Though I don't feel fitted in this society, here was where I was born and the only country I lived in but I always thought there must be a bigger world out there.
It can’t be my life is just broken up into: University, ROM, buying HDB, have kids, buy a car, work hard to service my mortgage & loans and grow old.
By twist of fate, I stayed 4 years in Europe. The 4 years which revealed just how small Singapore was. The precious 4 years which revealed my true character and taught me how differently one can lead your life. Mostly, it taught me life can be lived MY WAY – however what is the way I want?
I am more confused than ever and at the back of my head, I still can’t figure out: What exactly is the purpose of my existence?
It is now 3 years since I accepted Christ and I have never been happier. I certainly didn’t plan to be a Christian but God’s grace was upon me and I merely took that step of faith. This tiny step has opened up my eyes and am no long blind.
Here you will read about my personal life journey, passion, inner thoughts and testimonies of the goodness of my mighty God.
Most importantly, I hope this blog will act as a platform to all women who have the same deep conviction that we are uniquely created and we are empowered to break through our “cocoon” (situations & circumstances) & emerging as beautiful butterflies.
